FantasyFreak-FanGirl

Sorry for thanking you all so late!

"Woooaaah, this shit's whacky/crazy! Were they on drugs when they made this?"

... excuse me?

So, do people legitimately think we artists aren't able to be creative/imaginative while being sober/clean/sane?

Joke or not, it's quite annoying hearing or reading stuff like this. I haven't heard anything like this in a while, but it's just a thought my brother and I often talk about.

Of course, there is the exception to those artists that may use drugs to get inspired for creative ideas, but please don't assume we're all like this.

I'm sorry you're not able to comprehend the "whacky" stuff others are able to. Anyway, you have a nice day, everyone.

First the earthquakes around the West Coast, and now a tropical storm in Louisiana and Mississippi? I hope you guys are doing okay. Stay safe, everyone.

Hey, guys. I've never been exactly absent from here as much as lack of posting drawings. I've still got the requests and art trades in my messages to remember to do, but...

Art block is definitely the worst enemy for many artists out there. In real life, I'm truly happy that I've been developing me and 's original story and original music more, but I'm terribly sad that I haven't had the will to draw and post anything here.

And even with the recent stuff I've posted, it just... doesn't exactly feel the same. I don't know, I guess it's that all of the truly close friends I had here for years are in different sites and don't know which ones they are; I guess because I'm no longer a child anymore, who knows, but everything doesn't feel... "magical" anymore.

I want... so badly, to get that feeling back... that magical feeling that urged me to keep drawing and pleasing myself, as well as some fans and friends; I want so badly, to have that magical feeling to push me to make the Koopalings cartoonz (Airships and Airheads) and finish the Codes and Stories fanfic; I want so badly, to keep the magic alive on this "FantasyFreak-FanGirl" page.

I know how many times I've said that I merely draw to please myself, but I suppose in reality... when my drawings pleases other, their pleasures fuels my happiness. Ever since I was in elementary school, it's always been that way, and I guess it always will be.

Once upon a time, I was a weird kid; did things out of turn, picked my nose in the public, sometimes didn't listen to the teacher or to the smart students, which had a lot of kids not really like me. Then one day, I don't remember when, but I drew... and whenever I drew something, anything, it was the only positive feedback I ever got from my peers and adults alike. I knew I loved to draw since before going into school, but seeing how much people liked it made me love it even more.

So whenever there was free time, I would draw, and kids passing by would comment about it. In middle school, I learned how to draw on the computer (with the help of my sister), and I would draw for school projects on them, and my classmates would gather around me and watch. As much as I hated crowds, I admit that I loved it when people watched me work my magic.

Now that I'm no longer in school, there aren't that many different, physical energies that motivate me to draw any further. Of course, I have my wonderful family and amazing boyfriend, but... I guess that's not enough to push me. I only want to please them with my drawings, and since they're close to me both emotionally and environmentally, I've been focusing on my original stuff more.

As you can tell, as much as I don't let on, I'll admit that I am pretty... cocky with my works, with the talent and gift I was born with. I'm know I'm not the top notch artist in the world, but I know I'm at least passable and decent with what I can do, and know I can and will do much better.

I apologize for the rambling, and I apologize for the lack of... well, anything, really... but I hope this helps you guys understand why I haven't been posting as much. I'm hoping for the best in the future, and I'm hoping I will be able to regain that magic someday. Until then...

That's all, folks... thank you for sticking with me and supporting me for as long as you had...